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I MISSED NOOOOOOTHINGGGGGGGGG BECAUSE I AM THE ULTIMATE RE-CHECKER ! ...I guess when I play the rest I can post anything you might miss.

~double posting~ I should have put this in my first post, but I thought I'd find some other place to throw it. It might as well be under this topic as I dislike drawing more attention. My friend sent me this article today 5 Ways Modern Men Are Trained to Hate Women | Cracked.com And with it he gave me a dialogue about how he has a secondary conscious that just wants to have sex and nothing else. It was a little difficult to swallow for me (not that this concept is new, but I usually hear people fighting it), in that it made me wonder more about how well I really know what a man is thinking. Years ago I would complain much about how, as a woman, I'm always in competition with every other woman in existence whether I desire to be or not. I will always be judged by my appearance, there will always be a hotter, and thus better, woman. This is particularly bothersome for me because I'm small and look far more meek than I let on in conversation. I often show interest in what someone is saying without saying anything, it probably makes me look confused instead, when I'm intrigued. I've never worn makeup and a comfortable bra is too expensive, so I ignore them while knowing it makes my chest look far smaller. I don't know how to do my hair. I'm unnoticeable. And I'll always be judged for it. My worth will be judged. Anger, I see that all the time. From guys I've attracted, too. I recently had a guy furious, practically having a psychotic breakdown, all because I wouldn't sleep with him anymore, even though he knows I've been in love with someone else for a long time... (and I've been away from this forum while completely botching all my encounters with said guy, cry...). Men can make me feel so... hated, in unique ways. I wonder if I really am just thought of as a walking pair of tits, even if it's not all the time. I can't separate sex from the rest of my mind. I have had thoughts that are perfectly slutty, I have thought that if I could just sleep with whoever, situations wouldn't be so tense, the world would be more comfortable, whatever. But I worry and I wonder how differently I'm regarding the world than others. It's uncomfortable to imagine it being so...separate. ...Anyway, I'm curious to hear more opinions on that article. ^^ Should I consider it bullshit that I'm in a position of power? Should I consider I am and if so how do I make it not a threatening thing? Etc.

Iiiiiii want to write a gameeeee... I don't have the motivation, but I've thought of many ideas over years. I'll think of dialogues, situations, characters, finales. I write nothing down. There's no point in even mentioning it. I grew up desiring to be a writer, until I became a teenager and thus sunk into the "adult world" just deep enough to give up at anything I ever cared about. Even once out of that enough to realize that I don't care about society's standards, motivation and energy are still far gone. Maybe if I'm still alive in another 30 years after I've fully obtained peace and contentment. ...Hey, I'm a bit perfectionist about these things.

"It's always a little awkward when someone asks to borrow my computer for a second and I'm like "...No."" LOL!!! I have a sort of "getting caught" story about others that you reminded me of, but some might berate me for the introduction. I dated my best friend's brother once (hey he manipulated me when I was down! ;_; ) and my best friend knew I played h games & also played them, and I knew he was uneasy about my then-boyfriend using his PC due to recent downloads, so I asked the boyfriend out of curiosity if he'd ever found anything. Usually you don't get this kind of chance to ask that discreetly, it was a unique experience I might say. He DID find things without looking for them - including a porn site that was one he also visited (ahaha) AND a game... Which, to my surprise, he even played (his first)! I think he tried it because he knew I played them. I never let my friend know this XD I would change titles of folders & files so they would sound like "normal" games, but I accidentally left the word "hentai" from some download site in a folder name for quite a while before...I really hoped no one knew what it meant. I got a program once to locate what was taking up the most space on my drives, and my brother used it, and complained about a certain game up at the top...I really hoped he didn't know what it was.

Even though I go for story, I tried Raidy because I thought the characters were cute, and couldn't play it because..ah..it was awful. Well, gotta try new things sometimes... My mother used to say things to me like "God I hope you're not the other way". And you know, I didn't like what GenjiChan said either ("Girls should only playing eroge otomes only"), however in time I've been able to calm my reactions and consider why things are said regardless. Logically, we don't understand each other, and that knowledge alone can't make us understand each other. I know it's pointless to "fight" against. I'm still plenty immature, though, don't get me wrong. I'm not inhuman enough to feel nothing when reading something that could make me feel bad about myself, unfortunately "Why is it trendy to like eroge now? No girls then..." Really? I've been playing them since 2000~ I did always wonder what other girls were out there playing them. . . . Sometimes I don't respond in order.

Hah, I really hate spoilers, I don't want any portion of a story revealed to me before I come to it myself. It's like having my own life spoiled, I want to experience something as it comes. I want to be stupid and in the dark before I see it. Fortunately, I usually remember NOTHING about an intro because I don't know the characters yet. When they give you an intro after playing a bit, I intentionally don't pay much attention

This is one of few games I never 100% completed, due to the mess of different endings and tiresome effort to use walkthroughs. I believe I hit nearly all though, and what I remember is that every ending you seek out actually gives you a different reality to the situation at hand. Which is kind of eery in its own right. I'm not sure if they're supposed to fit together somehow. This game starts out pretty stupid - well,it starts out with all this potentially boring serious crap, and then you are hit hard with the goofy crap. Critical Point will always stick with me regardless of its flaws because there are just some scenes that scared the living daylights out of me, and others that gripped me emotionally, and others that gripped me while terrifying me. This game isn't for the weak of heart though, I'd say most of the dirty scenes you uncover are actually of dead people, which certainly isn't my cup of tea, but as I said, it had moments that really pulled me in and made me feel like I was there. I was terrified of every selection I made at points, terrified of doing the wrong thing, terrified of facing scenes I knew were coming. That sort of thing impresses me.

The cover and description of this game interested me very much, but this will forever be the worst hentai game I have ever played. I sincerely hope. Instead of getting deep into character development and realizations, this game takes you into the fantasies of a moronic child with no care for others. Games like this are why I can no longer be surprised by anything. If you want to experience unimaginable cockiness in completely unrealistic and undesirable scenarios and do things like drug a girl to the point she'll be retarded for life before raping her - this is your game. This is the type of game people play after hearing how bad it is because they think "It can't be that bad", and then come to find out they were wrong.

I tried this because it sounded interesting - you can switch between playing either of the three girls throughout the game and it's supposedly used for puzzle solving/completing the game. But I hated it. A lot. I didn't complete many endings before turning away, considering I started concentrating on the eldest sister thinking "Oh, sex at work? Sex with my boss? Sex on desks? Count me in!", but from what I could see her stories are probably the most depressing and rape filled. I look at that box art now and I wonder, how can they smile like that? Wth could they ever have to smile about? Anyway, it was a huge disappointment. I can't remember much about the game probably because I don't want to. Fun concept, but it doesn't pull you in, there's hardly any interaction between the shared feelings. If this game contains any happiness at all, I didn't come across it before quitting, but please tell me if you do, maybe I'll feel a little better.

I know what you mean I downloaded that game as well after hearing everyone's raves about it, you're convincing me to get it started now-! ...I'll play it and THEN tell you if I have recommendations

I was horrified by the title of this, and the description didn't help any. However, I had played Enzai as my first yaoi game despite it also having a disturbing setting, and really enjoyed it (if you don't play far enough, don't expect to understand why I liked Enzai), so I had to give this a try too. Result? I loved it. The game description is actually nothing like what really happens in the game. This may be taken as a spoiler, but it's something you probably want to know if the title and description turn you off - the main characters are actually NOT assholes. They do not abuse and hurt people throughout the game, and while there is rape it's not horrifying or scary (read: not realistic ..to my knowledge). In fact, I was delighted to find out that the main characters actually make the decisions I want them to! They do not blindly follow orders. You, the player, will not really be able to be a dick to others no matter how hard you try. It is quite unrealistic in terms of quickly formed relationships (for one thing), but I still find them very interesting and thought-provoking (except about two missions... but their descriptions gave ample warning). The finale was something I didn't see coming, it was very sweet to me, perhaps some of the most intimate love scenes I have seen in h games, though way too short. I'm pretty sure I cried in a happy way. I tried to make some of my straight male friends play this because I don't think it's just me liking male on male that makes me enjoy the game, but so far none have accepted. I do latch on to small things that hold meaning to me, so.. like anything else, you might not get my appreciation. I want to replay this just to pull a quote by Kia from the final ending. Make no mistake though, it is indeed loaded with sex.

I think the point was hoping that *your girlfriend* likes guys If you are a guy that is... I like both, but I've never been with or loved a woman. And to SaruDa... I'm too honest to speak covertly! It's not a big deal for me now, I'm not 16 so I'm not a sex object anymore right?! Jokes..but yeah, it's alright. We have to tough it out so other girls can do it too.

Wow Jikendor, nice to meet you, I think we're going to get along great.

Obviously it depends on how well it goes with the eye color! ... I have a thing for pink and red hair, I WANT to like green but it usually doesn't look good to me. And this isn't from anime but on the subject of hair colors, I think this is freaking amazing even though I usually find lavender boring (disclaimer- I have no idea who this is):

I get that a lot. There is a lot of pressure surrounding Being A Female Online though, lots of awkward attention can build up of both blindly positive and horribly malicious types.

Fortunately, Suck my Dick or Die! had not been released yet. I'm pretty sure also that she would not have read that one out loud.

Hah. Forever! I hate when games and books end. I used to take long breaks just to make video games seemingly last longer ...because of that, I still haven't finished Final Fantasy VI...

I was very careful while living at my parent's house, but a couple times I did think it would be acceptable to leave the game minimized and pretend I was using my browser when my mother came in. She would stare DIRECTLY at the computer screen as soon as she came in the room, a very suspicious, nosy person. But sometimes closing would take longer to hide the image than minimizing. The closest I was to being caught was having my mother see & read aloud the title of the game I was playing in a suspicious tone... That was pretty scary, and she probably did know it was something dirty, but I was innocent (stupid) enough to think she could have found it suspicious for another reason and thus saved my worries.

Ah, I have many RO memories. I met my roommate in RO even However, I don't usually play the game so much as just make cute hats and then sit around in town talking and summoning monsters wasting hours of my life. I miss playing, but I'll probably stick to private servers if anything so I maintain some sanity. Funny thing is, I tend to have the same problem azada mentioned where I don't have people to play with, but then... when I *do*.... well, we don't actually play the game anyway ("So..wanna go level up or something?" "Yeah sure, hang on, I want to catch a Wicked Nymph before I go out" "OK you done?" "Hold on, let me switch to my Sniper" "...." "Argh, I forgot I have no equipment here, can you spare me some accessories?" "NP" "Yeah now that I'm ready I kind of want to go make lunch instead" "...Fine. I don't want to play before completing my Butterfly Wings anyway.")

I have to complete everything. I can recall just three games I didn't - one was so boring I'd never remember what scenarios I hadn't witnessed yet so it's not worth redownloading, one was so terrible it had no good in it whatsoever and continuing to clear more paths was hardly shining any light on the possibility for notsuckiness, and the last I may have completed but I have no freaking idea because it was such a mess of endings, BUT I STILL THINK ONE DAY I WILL CLEAR IT ALL... If a game isn't good enough to read all of, I probably won't play it to begin with. ^^

I apologize that I'm not reading this whole thread, but I want to respond to just this because it reminded me of something. Long ago I was playing a game without walkthrough, which actually used to be possible, and I couldn't get this one girl no matter how many times I tried. I kept failing. Finally I had given up and was playing through again doing things I disagreed with just to see if I could find anything else. And then I got her. What happened was, the girl asked you if you wanted to be her friend, and you had to answer no. I could never pick that option because I thought it was so mean, so I never did. If you pick it though, he adds on to it "I want to be more than friends". And ever since then, I've kind of used the "I want to be more than friends" line slightly seriously yet as a sort of inside joke. In one of my relationships, I was actually caught not answering that way when they were trying to get me to (pre-relationship)... I have no idea how that happened. But I wonder...what doesn't work with real girls exactly? (not to derail or anything, sorry )

Thanks Arco I was just thinking, why am I worrying about how much I write when this is a forum about games you *read* (mostly)! Well, no one has to read it anyway. I remembered another thought I had when I was younger - when I first loaded up True Love and looked at the girly, pink title screen. I could only think "How are these games for adult men? How do a bunch of old guys sit around and create girly looking things like this...?" it made me feel a little bit like I belonged there playing it... very confusing. I played another game this year I forgot to mention. Monster Girl Quest XD My roommate downloaded it and I thought it would be boring, however he called it quits after seeing the drawing style of the goddess and hearing it contained vore. Nevertheless I liked the cute house you start out in so I picked it up myself, and in the end I was upset when the game just ended out of nowhere! I'm becoming self conscious about how many paragraphs I start with I now.

DID NOT REALIZE HOW LONG THIS WAS WHILE WRITING..SORRY ^_^; I'm awful at being brief... Hi guys! I threw out that I'm also a female in the "how did you get into eroge" thread already ^^ I didn't expect I'd see a thread with this title since I didn't see any other girls posting there (I stopped reading though, I try not to get too involved in forums anymore). I'd like to say a few things about this. Someone asked about the whole male main character bit - and actually since I was a child, I have to say I've only been able to identify with male protagonists most (all?) of the time. I can read the writing of a male and identify with it, feel like it is the same as me, my own mind. It's always been that way. It takes a hell of a lot more looking for me to find a female I can identify with. I have now, but there are usually things that separate me from other women which bother me, whereas the things that separate me from thinking like a man are much less alienating to me... And of course, women characters written by men are often god awful, empty, and seemingly thoughtless. I do still identify the female that is closest to me that you get to screw (or hopefully screw? whatever), but in that case I'm looking at very few characteristics because she probably has few to begin with. I also stated this already, but my favorite erogame is Eve: Burst Error - which has a female protagonist as well as male, and I love them both. That was the first game I played where I could identify somewhat with how the female was "thinking" and such, even though in reality the character is much different from me (I am introverted, nervous, and mostly jobless, for example). The US version has the sex scenes removed (not why I played it, I go for the games with the sex you know, even though I play for story/environment/characters), and I actually really wanted to see them for once. I should note to anyone who hasn't played this though, that after hearing how great it was, I was pretty bored until quite later in the game - but I have no problem waiting for something to get better. I also played Desire for the fact it had a female lead to play, and that I prefer detectivey games, however Desire depressed the living $(*#$ out of me and I hated every turn it took. Besides that I played some god awful female lead game I don't recall the title of that was just a bunch of unsexy, depressing rape, and now I'm playing my first yuri game but hardly got into it yet, and I expect it to be boring. :/ Oh wait, I played that old wrestling game too back in the day..haha, at least the drawings were good.. I think. I like the sharp art from old games compared to today's smoothed-over drawings. I don't need realistic drawings, they're less...cozy to me. Since I started erogames at age 14~ (for sexcuriosity and readstorygameplay) I didn't tell anyone else about it for a few years - in fact back then I didn't even know the holy fact that every guy masturbates. However some years later I saw some friends (male, I only really have male friends..still, but I'm not a lesbian) of mine online joking about a certain game, and it just so happened... I'd played it. They were trying to hide it from me and act like I shouldn't know what they were talking about - oops So I slowly admitted to a couple of my friends what I'd played and we started sharing our experiences and download locations. Now it's no big deal to me, I'll tell people even if I think they'd find it laughable. I know some of the games I've played are ridiculously stupid, and I don't regret playing them I haven't been playing lately, so I don't know much about the latest games, in the last year I only played Kara no Shoujo (I liked it, but the whole "In Japan, crazy things can happen but they don't really affect us in any way" thing is tough to stomach so much of!!) and Soul Link (didn't expand in many ways that I wanted to, but I guess it wasn't bad). Now I am searching again, but I am picky, and any game you think a girl would like, unless you like it too I doubt I will. I prefer adult characters now, it gets a little old trying to identify with my high school self Searching for that alone is difficult! Oh, and I've never skipped past sex scenes even if they are crap. I can appreciate something sexy even if the writing is awful, but really I just want to see characters that matter. I also kind of want to check out some... anime... now, but I sure chose a bad time with upload websites being massacred

I think I found out about them while looking up dirty pics of cute anime girls back when I was 15/late 14. The Internet was new to me, sex was mysterious to me, and I loved video games. Particularly ones where I can just relax and immerse myself into a story and characters. My first downloads were Nocturnal Illusion (oh man, the music takes me back) and 3 Sister's Story. The first sex scene I came across, I actually blushed and covered the screen with my hands, I was embarrassed and didn't really understand all of it. I didn't know what "cumming" was. It's pretty funny looking back. I ended up on a mission to find all of the decent games, as a little 15 year old girl I was seeking out non-English websites that were the most likely to have the games I wanted. So I learned sex from often goofy, poorly translated erogames... I worry it still affects me somewhat, and I'm 27 now. I don't even have real interest in the sex anymore (unless it's yaoi, but I only played 2 with that) My favorite game is Eve: Burst Error, of which I didn't even play a version with sex scenes...I played it when the characters could have an incredible impact on me, and it was perfect (and I could forgive the localization...). Ironically, I still decide not to download games if they don't have sex in them though. It's like, wtf, I can't bone people? Screw this. Back to searching.